Feeling like grot....

I have a cold and I feel terrible....... I think what has made it worse is the fact that I am extremely tired thanks to the huge amount of uni work I have been trying to juggle the last few days.... This uni thing has become a real joke, I am going to fail one of my assessments because I started it early because I know how long it takes me to do things, thanks to my 2 year old! any wayz, if I start talking about yesterday I will cry again mes think...

I still havent heard from my X to see if he is taking Peta this weekend or not, but then again that is the normal thing with him.. grrrrr. oh did I mention I am having a tupperwear party?? Its on saturday and I have many yummy things planned to cook and eat... so much for the diet :p

My weight is starting to get me down a little, I saw myself in the mirror the other day and I was in shock as to what I saw..... I am doing my exercisisng, but the food thing is really becoming an issue.... I just find it HARD, with uni and stuff to eat write, I really dont know how to tackle it. My step sister messaged me this morning reminding me that the wedding is only 6 months away... ARGHHHHHHHHHHH Thats alot of weight to loose in not a very long time!!!! I guess I a, just going to have to make a consertive effort to eat right..... hmmmmmmmm

Peta is being a bit of a grot today, compunded with me being sick is not making for a nice night. I am at my dads tonight as I am going tap dancing later, I really think I need some me time to lift me sprit! I really enjoy the class, its only small - 3 of us in total so yeah its good. Our teachers are trying to convince us to go in the concert but non of the others are that keen.... I kinda hope that we do and I will post some pics for you......

Mother's Day....

Just a quick one tonight, I am pretty tired! Had friends over till late last night, Miss Peta stayed up till 11! she was pretty good, just layed with me on the lounge watching a movie with us! Which is prob why I am having so many problems getting her to sleep tonight

I had a pretty nice day, didnt get breaky in bed but had a family breaky so that was nice and got a couple of little presents. Noni, Peta amd I went shopping this arvo, which was nice.

Any wayz, I am off to get ready for bed!

Hope you all had a nice day!

Blah Blah Blah....

Well I havent had a chance to post for a few days... Uni work has piled up and I had more assignments that time. Thankfully I only have 3 left, most of them in the next few weeks.

My uncle has booked his flight to come to AUS, which I was terribly excited about but he has cut his trip short again (he did this last time) and I will prob miss out on spending much time with him. You see he is here right in the middle of my exam period. He arrives on the 12th and my first exam is on the 12th, my next exam is the 19th and that is the day he and Noni leave to go to WA to see my pop... they arrive back on the 23rd and well low and behold I have an exam that day to.... THEN he leaves on the 27th and that is the day of my final exam.... Gesus I cant win sometimes. Last time he was over I was in the middle of my trial HSC and got to see him a total of 3 times even though he was staying with us! And its not like I am going to have any chance of geting to the states any time soon, especially not now after these CS changes.

Oh well I guess that is life huh? well thats what Noni said. I would have much rather here, I am really sorry its worked out like that, but I guess sympathy is too much to ask for these days.

My Moron Wanker X (MWX) is meant to be becoming over with XMIL tomrrow arvo, so Peta can see them for mother's day. However I got a message from him earlier saying they might not be able to make it as he needs to go to to see his GF mother for mothers day.... Nice to know that he would rather see his GF than his own daugthter.... Oh well I just smile and nod, at least this way I might actually enjoy my mothers day.

As you can tell from this post I am little bit of a mood, the whole mothers day is slightly depressing from my point of view and well somewhat dread when it comes around. To add salt to the wounds, I had a bit of a tiff with my closest friend last night and well I am still reeling over it - Give me a few days and I will be over it, unless he apologises first (which I doubt, you know men!)

I had an excellent day yesterday, uni was so much fun. We were all so tired from trying to finish the assessment that we just said and did stupid things! I think we spent more times in fits of laughter rolling on the floor that we did actually talking about serious stuff. We are all going out for dinner when I hand in my last assessment, I will try and takes some pics so I can post them on here for you all to see! We really do behave like a pack of dim bats when we are around each other.

Peta went swimming this morning, and they have moved her back into the little pool as the pool she was in has a crack in it. I dont think this is at all a good move, but I guess there isnt much I could do. I did keep my cool, which is surprising to me, normally I would have flown off the handle. I think I am becoming one of those my child desvers all the best and only I know it. I think alot of it stems from the fact that her dad is pretty useless, sometimes I feel as if I need to make up for it and try to do it in ways that she wont even remember. I guess thats just one of my many flaws. what frustrates me though is that peole think because I am young, I have no idea what the hell I am doing! Like the women today said to me 'what would you know?' and I know it was more meant as well your NOT a swimming teacher, but still there is a brain in there you know!!! OH well at least I control my anger and the tears.

I am listening to miss Peta, sing to her self and muck around when she should be sleeping! MY goodness she is soooooo cheeky and naughty sometimes! I think that is why my hair is falling out!

I bought my mum a digital photo frame for mothers day, it was on special and although it was a little more than what I wanted to spend, it was better value so can somewhat justify it.... well until the CC bill comes in! I will have to take some really nice pics for it! I think it is going to be hard for her when we finally move out, oh well will cross that bridge when we come to it!

I have only given this adress out to one person, so I kinda feel as if I am talking to me self still... I should get on and send some invites out so it not just me blabing on!!!!

Any wayz, I might head down and do some more house work! I really need to do some washing grrrr I hate washing!

I hope this finds you well in WWW (not that I think any one is out there :p)

And Happy mothers day to all you mothers out there........ Especially if it is your first one ;p

Huffing N puffing

Well I did me a pretty good workout this morning... a boxing class and wel I didnt feel like I was going to pass out or anything so maybe I am on the road to a healtheir lifestyle..... hmmmmm..

The assignment is still only a heading, but I did do heaps of reading and kind know where I might head it. I have started doing my overveiw so I might be at least started by somewhere tonight. I am seriously thinking about looking for work as well as doing uni next year, I know its going to take me prob an extra year or something but it means I will be getting experience as well as study. So now I just need to get a flexible job, that will let me study....... I think that is going to be the hard part.....

The tupperware lady is meant to be droppng by this morning, to drop of some booklet things. I decided to have a party, I know a few people who might want to come and well its a good excuse to eat some yummy stuff I guess. My brothers GF wants me to drop a book thingy off to her, shame is like a 45mins drive GRRRRRR If only still lived around the corner.

I believe Peta has moved into my bed, which I am slightly unimpressed about.... I would really like I nice solid nights sleep with out a foot up the bum or a hand in my face. I am really going to have to do something about, just not sure what I am going to do...

I was listening to the radio this morning and was pretty astounded at what I was hearing. They were talking about Corey going into the BB house and how there oppions had changed since seeing him in the house and how it was partly the media fault for what had happened.... The caller then went on to say that he was just doing what every 17year old would do if their parents had gone away. I beg to differ, this guy posted a messgae on myspace and SENT it to his friends.. the party went hay wire and he costed the tax payer a lot of money, people got hurt and his house was trashed and NOW he has been somewhat rewarded for what he did.... Has he ever never apologised or even said what he did was WRONG.... He has never taken any responsiblity for what he did.... and people wonder why the world is turning out the way it is. It truly is a worry.

Well now that I have wasted a little more time before I start my assessment I should prob scout off and get it done.... Wish me luck!!!

Hope this finds you all well out there.......

Assignment.....

I am so well and truly over assignments.... I have had enough of them... grrrrrr. At the moment I am (well I should be) writing an essay on Performance Management, and well its just so darn boring. The resources I have found for it are boring, the question is boring..... its just B O R I N G........!!!!!! I need motivation and alot of it at that....

Today

The kidlet was pretty well behaved today, we basically just stayed around the house.... did some house work as we had friends come over for dinner tonight. Oh I have a question for you all..... 'whats the hardest thing to do it the dark?'...... Cook a BBQ!!!!! Our stove top blew its self up the other day, and we only have one element left, which does make dinner a little difficult to cook so I decided on having a BBQ... Only problem is there is very little light near our BBQ and by the time I did some food shopping for it, it was pretty much black... so the steak was over cooked and the corn was BLACK.... but apart from that it was ok.. oh the garlic bread was pretty chard as well. But no one died so all good I say.

One of my closet friends is away this weekend and I am really feeling it. I am missing him terribly, we dont even really have a chance to talk so I cant wait to hear all the goss and spill some beans of my own... I have had a pretty hard weekend, dinner last night went well or at least as expected. My brother and his gf though are continually asking about my boyfriend hunt.. I mean do I REALLY need to be reminded of these facts.... Considering neither of them has ever been in a situation similar to this I sometimes wished that they kept there comments to themselves. Oh well I guess thats just the way family is. But apart from that dinner went really really well, Peta was excellently behaved (which was kinda surprising). Noni enjoyed her night so I guess that is all that matters.

Oh Noni also booked her tickets for the trip west to see her dad, my uncle hasnt replied to any messages yet so a little worried that he might pull the plug on the trip, which is a little worrying as they planned to split accomodation and stuff with each other. Also my aunty might have wind of the trip and as no one really likes her no one wants to go with her, I guess that what happenes when you treat people like dirt.... I just think it is going to cause soooo many dramas! blah kinda glad I am NOT going if you ask me.

Well I prob SHOULD get some work done on this darn essay that needs doing.. oh dearly me.... what to do what to do...

I trust that all is right with the WWW.......

Chat soon.

Happy Birthday Noni,

I ventured to a tupperware party today and I forgot how much fun they can be! It was a really nice morning with the girls and the kids just played wonderfully.. They were just so well behaved! Pitty Peta wasnt so great when it was time to go.... at least it is a sign she was having a good time. She did have that great a sleep today, so who knows how tonight is going to go.......

The title is a little pre emptive... Noni's birthday, isnt till Monday but the family is celebrating tonight so I figured the WWW could as well. We are going to Noni's (who is my mother) fav resturant, which sadly is the local RSL club.... hmmmm oh well what ever floats your boat I guess. They do have some pretty decent food, and well they have RSL prices SOOOOOO its cheap.

I have just got home from shopping for a birthday present, like I said in PP I tried to go shopping the other day and ended up with NILL. so I ventured up today with out kidlet in toe, which was a million times easier and fruitful than last trip. I got her a new toaster, which I know she is going to complain like hell that it is another appliance, but the fact is she complain all the time about darn toaster we have so hopefully this will make it a little easier.

On a general note

I guess one could say. My pop is well pretty sick, he is very old and his age is starting to get to him. His hearing has gone, and well the memory just is no exisitant. My mum and one of her brothers in planning a trip over. They live in WA, I am helping to org the trip and well its starting to become a hassal. I really wish I could go BUT they want to go right in the middle of my exam period. I dont think I could handle going over on my own with Peta, they are pretty full on people. I would really love to go and clear the air before he was to go, I havent actually spoken to them since I told them I was PG with Peta. They are pretty big churchies and well that went down like a lead balloon!!!! BUT he is my pop and well I its prob something I should do... HMMMMMM so many thoughts in it. I guess I will just wait and see about my timetable and see what magic I can wave.....

I should prob head off and get dressed to go out and chuck the grot child in the bath... She has been eating a jam sanga and well it is somewhat everywhere... GRRRRRR oh well the story of my life....

I hope this find you all well.........Though I dont think there is any one out there yet.... Isnt talking to yourself the first sign of craziness... I wonder if this counts!!!!

Cheers big ears....


Jess

Why Hello Hello............ to me!!!

Well Hello hello to all the unfortunate people reading this....

I have never 'blogged' before, so I dont really know what I am meant to be doing so I will just blab on about my life.

I should prob give you all a little background on me... I am a 22 year old single mother of an amazing (yet sometimes challenging!) daughter. I am studying fulltime, doing a business and commerce degree (boring I know!). I live in sydney, in the south west direction. And well that it pretty much it, not very interesting I know......

Today, Friday 2nd May.

Uni today was pretty darn boring. Missed my lecture as I wanted to do some more on my silly silly assignment. I did have a few very good laughs over lunch... actually my stomch was killing me from laughing so much or was that because of the 50 sit ups I did this morning???

I did I pretty kewl tonning class this morning, I am starting to enjoy thi whole exercise thing, well as much as you can enjoy it! The eating side of things is prob not going so well. hmmmmm not sure what I am going to do on that aspect, I really want to loose some weight, but I do enjoy the food I eat, I enjoy eating some chocolate...... O dear, what to do what to do.

On my way home from uni today, I stopped at a friends sister in laws place to check out 2 new little bubbies!!!! They were just so wonderful and cute, and sooooo litle! I want abother baby! Oh well..... someday???

Peta, isnt going swimming tomorrow she is still a bit crock and we have a tupperware party and my mums birthday to go to so I think it is better that we dont go! It also means I get a bit of a sleep in... yay!!!! I need to go shopping to get a present for her to, I walked around and around the shops the other day and still have no idea what on earth to buy her... grrrr I hate buying presents, especially on people who are hard to buy for. My Brother and his Girl friend are coming out with us tomorrow night, it will be good to catch up with them, and I know Peta loves her uncle simo.... so it should be good tomorrow night!

So NOT looking forward to mothers day next weekend..... ohhhhhh its going to be a long weekend!!!!!!! A long weekend....... I dont expect its going to a relaxing weekend at all! Oh well cant complain... well actually I can hahahahahaha

Well I should prob hit the sack soon!

I hope this find you all well in the wide world out there......

Night guys!!!!

MWHA......